Up In 6 Hours

Last night I set three different alarms: ten fifteen, ten thirty, and ten forty five. My intention for waking up so fucking early was to get out of the house in attempt to avoid my soon-to-be hung over mother. She would smother me with questions (as usual) and we would bicker all day.

When I woke up this morning I checked my phone. It was one forty three. I had subconsciously listened to my alarms and hit dismiss. All three of them. I physically leaped out of bed, put my hair on top of my head, and threw on makeup. I then managed to make a phone call for a ride and fifteen minutes later I was out of my house. It's funny how lately it has been a goal to be at home as little as possible. I suppose I'm avoiding something I don't want to deal with, or maybe I have just dealt with it too much to do it anymore.

I spent the rest of my day remembering how to drive a car and what seemed like constant eating. I also decided to talk to someone I thought I never would again. Maybe we can start over and avoid what happened before... the six months of back and forth and never knowing what to do. I think at this point in my life the most important thing is being happy. I don't necessarily want to be where I was with him but quite honestly he has the biggest heart out of anyone I know. Having him in my life is a part of what keeps me happy.

Currently, I am frustrated that Limewire is being a dick and isn't working the way I want it to. I'm frustrated that I have to wake up in six hours to attend a drivers ed class that I really should have chose not to take. I'm frustrated because I am having severe cravings for a venti soy chai and dark chocolate. I'm frustrated because a conversation with someone I've had feelings for that took place last night didn't go exactly as planned. I'm frustrated that I can't drive yet and still need a ride to get a bread bowl at Panera with my best friend at some point this week. I'm frustrated I am iPod-less and have been so for several months.

Maybe I'll come up with something important and/or interesting to blog about sometime in the near future...